Toca respirar

I see nothing but myself, reflections that disgust me... Everywhere. Mirrors, windows, the TV screen. Pictures, memories and that storm... It's all a bleak, and it feels so wrong. I try but can't help myself, more disappointments than I can collect. No matter where I look,  I won't see what's meant to be. What was meant to stay. I see nothing but myself, reflections that disgust me... Everywhere. I'll pray to God once and again, ask for forgiveness, repent once and again. But it will scramble over me, tumbling thunder, crying soul... It's all a bleak, and it feels so wrong. Pca.

Just another Sunday migraine and I'm still obsessed with Joanne... —It's just a headache, you're ok! says that toxic voice in my ear. But I know the deal, let's pretend it's all real. We'll fake it till we make it, till we fail... My headset is broken and my mindset too, a leak in my brain drowned in this pain. Tangled life,  sleepless night  hurtful jaw fuzzy thoughts. Just a Sunday migraine, I think therefore I ache. Pca.

To Virginia Woolf I wish I were liquid just to splash after the leap off my balcony, which is not, I wish I could get lost.  Far through the street gaps and drains,  running pipes, drunk but wise. I wish I learned before the horror it's not it all, the poetry can sometimes go wrong but the feelings, they cannot. But while wishing for my body keeps life and holds the daily nightmare, the sorrow panel and the anguish chart. Isn't thus something to be proud of? Pca

It ain't easy to handle, mesmerized by the music my heart trembled... Mood swings. They follow no rythm, achieve no dreams, score no goals. Mood swings, sad songs. Fighting for my wellness, dying in this dryness... Longing for a tear of pure water. Just a drop to pump my blood again and realise I truly am alive. It's just to much to be carried, may I call it a day? Life keeps going, anyway. Mood swings. They're controlling and bossy, maniac and fuzzy. Kept me drowning in this lake of thoughts, obsession I have no recall of. Mood swings, sad songs. Absence. Pca